Today I made it to Temple! Which was deffinately the accomplishment for the day.
It was very difficult being in church today. Though the message was what I needed to hear about, having faith when everyone comes against you.
I came home and went back to sleep for many hours.
I then walked up to the supermarket with Ant to get some stuff for dinner. He pulled a mommy move. I wanted Cotton candy grapes by the grapery . But they were $15. I told him not to worry about it. He told me to start walking home and went back inside and baught them for me anyway. He also baught me purple roses, even though the flowers I baught for shabbott, where 2 red, 2 yellow and 2 pink. He said that He saw them and wanted to put a smile on my face. And said I was really looking forward to the grapes.
I found out today that my mother’s dieing wish to my dad was “To take care of Me and her favorite son in law and to make sure I get tested for bipolar. She always wanted me to get tested and labeled.
Today I also realized that God gave me the oppertunity to rewrite my mother’s legecy. The reason my spirit faught her siblings so much is that they were goiong to tarnish that legecy. Her legecy is for me. I am thankful I was given the oppertunity.
Also got a women’s expo invite, that was addressed to my mother. We used to go to those together every year. I want to go this year. Though it will be difficult without her. Plus its a couple of days before her birthday.
Well, time for bed. Tomorrow is a big day! Going to the Ronkonkoma street fair. Where last year I met my church and that was the one that we went together as a family, Anthony wheeled my mom around, she went to the democrat’s elecction table offering to help out, and we went for greek food at the greek resturant as a family. Tomorow is new memories.
The wierdest thing, is on facebook it says that mom is intrested in the event this year. This is why I have to go to it!
