Today we woke to a phone call from a job prospect for Anthony. This is the job that had emailed Anthony and said he had the job. He told mommy that he got the job days before she past. But they wanted to start after Labor Day. We get a call at 8:30 am that they wanted to meet him in person at 10:30. The last time Anthony wore his suit was for moms funeral and dinner and the shirt was stained. So I check targets website. I don’t like anything they have. So I check the collar in the shirt it was from krakos. They open at 10 am. I run grab us breakfast. And run back home and tell him to come with me. Because I want to go to krakos. But we will be cutting it close getting to the interview. He came with me. I handed the girl the shirt and asked for the same size and picked out a tie. They are apparently regrouping and We won’t know what will happen with that job until the middle of next week.
The reason I wanted to go to krakos is because mommy loves Anthony in that suit. She always complemented him in it.
I also spoke with my mother’s husband. Who is completely screwing with moms wishes with her life insurance policy.
He is also no longer honoring the arrangement he made with my mom even until the end of the lease.
I also did research into moms husband and found inconsistencies in his story. (Can’t go into detail right now). I looked this up before she went into the hospital and came up blank. Actually hours before she went into the hospital. I guess it wasn’t for mom to know this info.
I also spoke with the deacon from moms church and her car insurance agent. We ironed some things that happened and told her my side with what happened with the pastor. How she completely disregarded who my mother was created to be by saying she will remember her as a faithful servant of the Lord. When my mother wasn’t a servant she was the life of the party. She showed up with rings, graphic t shirts, fancy purses, etc. She made a scene and people knew she was there. That’s how the creator made her to be. Mom wanted her pastor to do her service. Not only did mom not get that, but not one personisher from her church showed up.
I talked about how the reason I wanted change the date of the funeral was because of we kept that week, I would have had to borrow money. And I don’t want to owe no man anything. Her family told me I either had the first week or the week of the 20th. I had no say in the dates.
I also explained how mom said to me that someone told her that is she gives up she is committing suicide. I told her no, that just like Jesus on the cross, He had to give up His spirit, we will have to do the same thing. It is a new level of trust, trusting that your creator is going to take care of you in a new way.
I also threw out one item from the freezer. It was a bag of frozen chop meat.
I walked up to king kullen and got challah bread and juice for Shabbat.
I’m exhausted. I feel like I put in a full days work.
Emotionally I am heart broken tonight. Not only am I mourning mom. But now I have less then 3 months to go through her stuff. And the situation with her life insurance policy. And moms siblings refuse to help me in any way.
All I keep singing is “it may look like I’m surrounded, but I’m surrounded by you”. lord help me to see you in all of this. Help me!
