That’s the thing, for me, grief has left me speechless. From a girl who loves to sing, dance, and love with her whole being. From a girl who started talking later then what was expected and needed speech pathology as a child. My mother would often joke, she wouldn’t talk until she was 6, but …
I have been needing to contact people that mom is receiving mail from to ask them to stop, or to change the address.One of the saddest things is I called her church to change her address. I won’t mention their name out of respect for them. They acted like they did not know mom, after …
Even with me spending as much time with my mom, ,there are still days I want to get to know her more… Those are the moments that I truly call grieving mom… What I used to do when she was alive on this side of heaven, I would go into her room and ask her …
Being in a state of fight or flight is a combination of if I dont do it NOW, I WILL forget and my body, mind and spirit to do have the capacity to complete that task right now.I lived in such a state of hypersensitive, in needing to know when mom was in pain, what …
Today was the first day since mom past that I actually went to go call my mother’s phone … Only to have the phone in my bag ring and I actually questioned where is mom for a split second. Daddy was involved with a hit and run. He appears to be ok. But mommy would …
Today is the first day Ive felt anger towards mom’s passing where I could actually envision myself throwing my Bible. Anger towards how could mommy continue to complain to me to her family.Anger towards I know she was planning on moving to ohio out of survival. How could she abandon me like that?Anger towards the …
Today was Anthony’s first day at the new job. His schedule works perfectly to be able to to both. They are also very liengqnt there. He had to take the power cord for work so I ran errands. I got daisy a new bed and bowls. Hopefully we can use bowls for her food instead …
Today was Anthony’s first day teaching as an instructor for a private collage. Mommy would have been so proud of him. Granted Anthony got the job that he did not get to tell her he got, but he got the job that she REALLY wanted him to get. When she heard that he would be …
Today, Mom’s childhood friend came out to pay for Mom’s gravestone. I am blown away by her generosity and her heart. How because she loved my mother so much, she wanted to help what was important and what my mother treasured – which was me. First and foremost, here we go again – I did …
Quote from yesterday’s update: Anyway, tomorrows plans are to call zippp box to see about getting some stuff. Especally mom’s hope chest. Loook into the house cleaning thing. Get supplies together. Maybe order Melaluca. Make sure mom’s number transfers to the new phone. Help Anthony with his lesson planning for the collage class he is …